New Year's Resolutions for 2011

It's that time of the year again. Time to think of things I want to achieve in 2011.... Funny, just the other day I read about "how to write New Year's Resolutions that you are able to keep". Now I beg to differ. Yes, some resolutions should be doable but I do think, you should put some things you might or might not be able to achieve. Maybe you are just not able to achieve them the coming year... maybe you will never be able to achieve them. Nevertheless I believe in putting some dreams and wishes into the resolutions just to make it more interesting and to keep you going. 


I recommend to all of you to write your N Y R's down and keep them safe. Have a look every now and then... or wait till the end of the year and look at them. It's rather interesting how you're life has moved forward from the moment you wrote them to the moment a year later when you read them. 


I had rather a bit of a laugh today when I read my 2010 resolutions. ;) 


Alright, shall we get started? (and yes.. it makes sense to write them down before the end of the year... why not start NOW? Have a "head start" ;) Come on, join me...)


So here are my 2011 Resolutions 

• As every year, trying to loose some of that extra weight

• Still hoping for my breast and hallux valgus OP (well at least one of the two)

• Running a Marathon (Yes I registered for April 8, 2011 Tel Aviv)

• Swimming across the Kineret (21K OW in October)

• Renovating my house 

• Getting a loan from the bank to renovate the house (lol)

• Get engaged to a decent man who loves me

• Put my Doberman on diet

• Get click pedals and shoes for my lovely Dolce

• Swim, Bike and Run more

• Write a book with my great friend G2 (yes we already started.. so stay tuned)

• Working on my "Trust Issues" with my shrink (wonder how that works out at the end)

• Travel around, visiting some great friends (Europe, South Africa, USA)

• Sell the house (wonder how many more years that will make my NYR's)

• Suing my ex lover who still owes me money and avoids talking to me for over a year already.... I am going to get ya!!!

• Finding either a better paid job or a second job so I'm able to have it easier paying the bills and "live" a little

• Making an effort working things out with a certain person

• Swim more with my dogs

• Join a Tri Club

• Try to see things clearer (as for what they are and not for what I want them to be!!! that only breaks my heart!!!) 

I guess that will do.... some are easy to accomplish some won't happen but for me personally it's important to have some dreams and wishes written down and look at them to get going. 


So, what are your New Year's Resolutions??? I dare you ;) 




Happy New Year!!!

And another year has passed....

and I'm still in Israel... sheesh.... this ain't good... 


I am about to write a review of 2010 and.... as every year... write down my new years resolutions :) 


Looking back at my list of last year ... I have to say.. #FAIL... big time!!!


New Year's Resolutions for 2010


Talk less and listen more??? FAIL... ask the guy I've been with this summer... 


Keep more private???? nope... I even started sharing my life story with a shrink bwhahaha 


Ok.. the "don't let people miss with my life so much" went a bit better.. also due to the help of Mr. E.


No sofas for the dogs to eat.. so haha... ;) 


Bitch behind the back.. nope.. I post what I think straight on FB and Twitter lmao


House renovation and move?? BIIIIG FAIL!!!!!!!!! but still working on it... darn banks..


World peace??? hmmm I blame the others


Finding a decent BF??? well.. he didn't see himself as my BF (after 7 months going out.. funny).. and I don't find him decent any longer!!!


Loose weight.. well I lost some.. and I got in better shape :)


For the Marathon... well Tel Aviv in April 2011 will be :) woohoo


I behaved with the shoe shopping :)


No travelling... my family and my reunion has to wait.. :)


I do think I am braver.. and try to see the positive in things... not always working out.. but... I am working on it :)


Swim Meets... well.... next year.. ;) lol... Worlds!!!!!!!!! woohoo :)

You're girl is lovely, Hubble!!!

Remember the movie... the end...



And of course.. there is the 'explanation' in the Sex and the City way..

Well I am a Katie Girl too.... last week my ex became a father... for as long as he was 'just' married, everything seemed still 'possible'... but now.. that there is a child... it's all gone...

Even when I saw pictures of her getting 'bigger'... it seemed like a bad dream and someone will poke me and wake me up. Unfortunately, no one ever came to poke me but I did wake up. Tough wake up.

I wish, I could ask the same question... just like Carrie... and yup.. I also know the answer... I was just too complex and she is 'the simple girl'...

Is he happy? I don't know... and seriously.. I don't care... 

Would he be happier with me? I don't think so....

Would I be happier if he was with me? NOPE!!!

But try telling that to my heart.

Of those 12 years in Israel.. I wasted 6 years actively and 3 years passively for this guy... and what was I left with... a broken heart.

I know he's not the right guy... I mean... who would like to marry a guy who tells you in advance that he will cheat on his wife... ??? I guess, that is one of the reasons we never made it.. he knew, I would find out ... and he knows.. how scary I can be when I'm angry... his wife on the other hand is either blind or pretends to not see... don't know what worse.. but... it's sad... I feel sorry for her and for their baby boy...

My ex told me not long ago, that he's a hunter.. that he'll aways hunt no matter what... and that cheating is ok.. as long as HE's the cheater... not the one cheated on.. (of course)!!!

Now here's my theory... sometimes you meet the love of your life, but it just can't work out. That's what happened here... we were perfect together but would never have made it... I know it sounds stupid, but that's how it is. 

Will you ever get over this kind of love? I don't think so... I won't .. he's a too big part of my life... 

The question is.... what would happen... if..... 

And yes.. as mean as this might sound.. but after 9 years knowing this guy... I know that there won't be a 'happy ending' to his marriage..... and I also know... he'll be 'back in my life'... as in.. sending me emails or even call.... but would I take him back? Unlike Carrie and Mr. Big, I wouldn't. I am no second choice. I don't need a man who cheats... I don't need a man who made a baby (we talked about having many years ago) with the girl he left me for.... no matter how low he crawls back, there is no 'taking back'... it took me three years to realize that, but hey.. better late than never... 

Even though I don't want him back... it hurts to see him live the life he told me we're going to have, with another girl... who.. hmm.. ever so slightly resembles me... isn't this ironic???

Ah well I guess.. I have to buckle up... move and hope for the best... and if he dares to come after me (as so many times before)... I hope that at least I have the balls to tell him once and for all 'go to hell'!!!

Just as Carrie said: "Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free till they find someone just as wild to run with them."

I know there is a guy out there... a real man... who's got 'the balls' to deal with a 'Katie-Girl'.. who's not afraid of a girl who knows what she wants in life and who learned at an early age, to stand on her own two legs and take life in her own hands and I know I will find him sooner or later. 

Mr. R rejected my love.... and I shouldn't see this as a sad thing.. but as a chance for myself to find someone not only better but someone who is true and real and full of love for a crazy fuzzette girl like me. 

The right Timing...

Or in my case... 'usually the wrong timing' lol.. especially when it comes to guys... and now I'm worried... do I have bad timing when it comes to open my biz and move to the USA too???

Lately I've heard of a few people who moved to the USA to open a biz and failed.... bad timing... bad economy... and... that makes me think... after all... this is a big thing for me.. to move.. and open my own biz... there is more to it, this time than just my private life... my money... my future... this time.. I have to say... FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION... so... when is the 'right timing' to move???


Ok, it isn't really funny, but I honestly have the wrong timing all the time. Oh, of course we all have sometimes bad timing, but I do feel, as if my whole life is 'wrong timing'...

Want an example? Alright here we go:

In Summer 2006... I was in love with a nice American guy from San Francisco... we wanted to meet and see, if we have a future together... had big plans.. if we 'klicked'... we would get married and move to Baltimore. We decided to to meet in Chicago... he's a big fan of Chicago and I've never been there. We booked flights, checked out hotels and I got a dogsitter. The bad timing you ask? Israel and Lebanon started a war and my dogsitter got scared and left Israel and I had to cancel the whole trip. (The good thing was, that all the airlines involved got us a full refund!!)

More bad timing? I usually fall in love with all the wrong guys at all the wrong times. The guys are either just out of a relationship and not ready for anything, others are only looking for fun or those who would like to have a relationship are just not my cup of tea. Of course some say, that isn't bad timing, but if this is ALWAYS the case, it has to be bad timing... it just can't be, that there's never a guy who fits.... at the right time...

That was one of the reasons I got on 'strike' over 2 years ago.... no more dating... I had enough.... and I wanted to be ready for my move and have my head clear...

Did it help??? hmm.. not really... I am still in the middle of everything... and worried... that I move at the wrong time...

Of course I won't be moving in the next few days.... but the US are still in the middle of the crisis... Israel is out of it.. we don't feel it... we have no idea, just how deep the US are in it... and I am only able to find out, once I move.

My friends making fun of me.... nagging me.. 'when do you finally move? Come on.. admit it, you don't wanna move'.... 'just watch out.. you'll fall in love just before you move and stay'.... hmm... are they right? I wonder... I do want to move.. yes.... I am not in love... and not planning on falling into it in the near future... (yes.. I know.. some ppl might beg to differ... but they are wrong... I am not in love.. I am not even in Lust... well not anymore... hahaha... we covered that.. haha.. tnx Mr. X hahaha)

So... when do I move, when is the right time? A question .. I am just not able to answer right now... but.. I know... THIS time.. for once in my life.. I'll have the PERFECT timing.... and I'll be successful... and who knows... once the biz works.. my timing in my love life will work out too??? ;)